realisation

a hi to all my readers who hopefully might have been visiting  the site for a new blog .

This one has been long time coming . Its straight from my heart and it is kinda controversial since it deals with one of my real life incidents. I am not a very cool type . I cant handle a gang of friends like situation unless i like everyone there. otherwise i find it hard to talk something cause i am always afraid i will goof up my image. I had a horrid time in fourth semester when it seemed i had no friends at all. A couple of guys in class put up with me during that time and this article is dedicated to them .

I  have friends but well they are same as me . not cool ones that people like but

they are guys i can easily  talk to or be with for ever . when we had  this industrial visit in fifth semester , I  was going through a peak period at that time making a lot of new friends , i deserted these guys for being in company with the cooler ones. My friends were not of dancing in bus type or yelling names type and i guess i left them to be with people who will do all the above things. The thing is it did not end with the industrial visit. i continued to ignore my true friends in order to say in touch and please the so cool people . i had forgotten the pillars that stood by me when all was lost. I knew i was hurting them . I knew what i was doing though not back-stabbing certainly provided them with almost same amount of pain . Yet i did it .

When the sixth semester happened , this time we had industrial visit to bangalore for four days

and as for me , i had got even more new friends widened my circle but i realised soemthing was amiss.

Ya those dudes may be cool but there was no warmth . I missed that warmth. I realised that i may never have what it takes to be cool or be associated with a huge gang and have fun but i cant lose out people who mean  a lot to me .

People whom i can trust and people whom i care about and i know they will do the same for me .

I  deserted guys who wrote my notes when my hand was hurt ,

helped me do whatever work i did not finish  due to my laziness and always responded to my cries for help .

Well i did go back and appologise to them . I am so bad as to say sorry through a blog but this is just to tell myself that i have come back realising what a big fool i was.if you ever read this , i just want to say sorry from my heart . Thanks a lot for being there with me.

You guys are friends others dream to have . Keep rocking always .

This post is especially to you JC .